So many times we view the act of being vulnerable as a bad thing. It is something where we let down our armor. We can get hurt. We are not protecting ourselves. Over the years I have been working with the process of vulnerability. The message came in a form of a dream in 2005 with someone I now name Dream Woman. Later on I will tell her full story. I learned with that dream that being vulnerable had so many meanings. It meant opening up to different ideas, and possibilities. It meant that I could embrace others beliefs and still hold my own. I no longer had to fight with others. Just accept. For me I believe the ultimate act of vulnerability is that of opening ones heart to love. It is a challenge. Many of us use our head to shut that down…including myself. As I continued to work with this dream, I entered into a vulnerable contract with my heart. An intense relationship ended (even though it was done long before that), and I felt my heart hurt like nothing before. It literally felt broken. But this time I knew it was different….if I chose that. So, I realized that it really was broken open. I got to choose if I let it stay open, or if I would close it again. I took a chance and I became vulnerable. I did a powerful ceremony and let go of everything surrounding my confusion of love and relationships. I asked for excitement and happiness. The next day I was asked out by Brad. I was scared and didn’t feel I was ready. But I knew that it was Spirit (God, Universe) answering my prayer. So….I went out with him. And now two years later we are going to be married and have purchased a home.
So….I became vulnerable. I opened my heart completely to another human being. I showed him my soul. As I enter into this wonderful commitment with him I know I don’t have to hide anything. I became vulnerable…and in the process I am really me.
I will share more of these stories in the coming weeks. I just so encourage you all to look at vulnerability in a different way. To look at what you are protecting and see that it is the essence of who you are. Until you are ready to completely share yourself, you will never completely know yourself. And the relationship we have with ourselves is so incredibly awesome! We deserve to know that part deep within.
So….what is your next move? In what area are you going to open up and be vulnerable? Life will show you amazing things. Yes…it might be a bit of work on your part. But….you are worth it!
Sending lots of hugs to you all on this beautiful May Day.
Peace,
Monica
