This is a continuation from part one: https://www.monicakenton.com/the-haunted-house-part1/
At this point, some of you may be asking, why haven’t I said anything to the owner? Why am I putting up with all of this? At the time, I didn’t know why. It could have been the overwhelm of so many clamoring spirits, lack of sleep, and a dull feeling within.
It is said that hindsight is 20/20. I realize now years later that I needed to learn deeper lessons and find my true heart’s desire before I would be allowed to leave. I needed to commit to finding my soul parts, and not those of other people.
Continuation of story:
Over the next weeks, I find myself helping the spirits and get lost in that world. As soon as I help some cross over to the light, then more come. I’m grateful for the opportunity and also realize I need to know where they are coming from. They can’t all be from here.
The property next door has a beautiful garden as well which has fallen into disarray since the owner passed away years before. It once was filled with beautiful roses and plants. There were lovely parties and galas in back. As I walk here, I see the thorns of the roses growing thicker from lack of care. Leaves and piles of brush are everywhere. The once beautiful fountain is filled with stagnant water and decayed wood.
I wonder if I’m meant to bring this place back to life and take care of the roses. I’m still trying to figure out why am I really here.
And then…I spot it. On an overgrown path with different sized stones, one is out of place. My jaw drops and I stare at it in disbelief. In front of me, broken in two is a gravestone. The name is missing, and only the dates remain.
“Wow. What the hell were they thinking putting this gravestone here? Didn’t they realize what they were doing? This is real energy attached to this stone. It’s not a decoration. It’s a portal for the dead.” I murmur under my breath.
It’s just one more example of how people don’t realize the energy of objects and what they are doing.
Something just snaps within. I’m done. After weeks of cleaning up psychic and energetic debris, crossing over lost souls, and cleaning houses, I finally see it.
I am slowly becoming the caretaker of lost souls.
I have inadvertently chosen to help others with energetic clean up, and in the process have released my own goals and soul purpose.
In the energetic world, we talk about boundaries and how to stay firm with them. Usually it’s regarding other people and their energies while alive. We are shown how not to take on the energy of others, and let them deal with it. However, this time I was dealing with boundaries with those who have already crossed over.
It needed to stop.
“So, why am I really here?” I cry in desperation and exhaustion. “It can’t be just to learn this lesson?”
The realization comes rushing in and takes my breath away for a second. A dream shaman, Robert Moss, I have admired for over 10 years lives an hour away. Of course. This is another reason why I’m here.
I had always wanted to take classes and learn from him but I used the excuse that there never seemed to be enough time or money. I know it was a matter of priorities.
I always had an intention of taking a class when the timing was right.
I rush inside and check the internet for the next offering he has. It’s the next day and I’m given permission to attend 3 hours before the gathering. I immediately get in my car and drive the long distance. It feels urgent.
I enter the old building and find the room where everyone is. Six other lovely women are there greeting me and asking where I am from. Robert, the teacher, comes in and greets me looking curiously as to why I am here. I explain to people in this dream group what has been happening to me of nightmares, wandering spirits, haunted lands, and much more. They nod in complete understanding.
This isn’t new territory for them. They have learned how to access these worlds in the Dreamtime. They decide to journey on my behalf to help me find the clarity I desire. I’m humbled and grateful in the presence of these lovely dreamers. I no longer feel crazy or confused. I feel validated and finally like I found where I belong.
This meeting of fellow dreamers is the catalyst I need to show me how accurate my senses are and and that it’s time to dream a new dream for myself. I no longer need to learn the lessons from the house of spirits. It is time for me to move and truly start living in a way that I yet do not comprehend.
Within weeks of that realization, my husband and I move from the house that taught me so much. I found what I came for, even though I didn’t know it at the time. I found the connection to the dreaming I so craved.
I made a commitment at that time that I would honor these gifts of mine and follow the dreaming where it took me.
It would take three years from that moment to fully step into my gifts in a deeper and more profound way. My life is wildly different. I am now a shamanic dream teacher (also known as active dreaming). I have realized long held dreams of mine with family, traveling to Europe, creating fun projects, moving back home to our native Minnesota, making friends in the international dream community, shifting my business model, and diving deeper into the realms of Spirit.
And yes, finally writing that book I saw years ago.
Some may say this can only happen in our 20’s or 30’s. As I sit here telling you my story at age 53, I can tell you they are wrong. When there is a deep connection to inner wisdom, a desire for change, a thirst for knowledge, and an attitude of just going for life in a different way, then life can forever be altered and changed.
There are moments when our best laid plans seem to take a wrong turn. However, when our heart is pure, and intentions are strong, we will always land in the appropriate place. All of these amazing life changes never would have happened without following that inner knowing that something was just a little off in my life.
My wish for all of you is that whatever is happening in your life, that you follow that small nudge within to explore what you are here to do. Let it be magnificent and an expression of the beauty you are.
Follow your dream. Make it your own. Be the person that your vision requires.
You will leave transformed.
